Wait… What? Burrrr!

December is just about here and I can’t even believe it! My last fall as an undergrad has flown by.

It seems like I was lugging mismatched furniture up the stairs of our “bright and shiny new apartment” in 90 degree weather yesterday. Since then we’ve learned that bright, shiny and new should really be old, drafty and ghetto. But it’s home now just the same. That was 4 months ago. 4 months, that’s all…but that’s also a lot. SO much has happened since early August, yet so little. It’s as if I’ve gone from a carefree jubilant college kiddo to a pseudo adult in a 4 month blink of an eye. My bedtime is now 10pm, I have a big girl car, planning a wedding, planning a future, searching for a career, professionally networking, and so much more. It’s a go-go-go, think -ahead, do this, do that, check, check, check kind of life that I’ve been living.

Is that what I want? Do I really enjoy realizing that it’s December and a new year is approaching and like I’ve done….well I’m not sure?

Not now.

Yes. I am doing something I love and that I am passionate about.
Yes. I am succeeding in school.
Yes. I am going to be graduating.
Yes. I am job searching.
Yes. I am planning for the future.

Yes. I am ….more than the things I do. I am more than: a job, a student, a professional, a teacher, an employee…

I am a child of God.
I am a sister in Christ.
I am beloved by the creator of heaven and earth.
I am chosen to do work that God has created in advance for me.
I am loved.

The go-go-go, think -ahead, do this, do that, check, check, check kind of life that I’ve been living doesn’t always work for me. Sometimes it just happens. It’s my natural inclination to turn on auto-pilot and soar. But when I auto-pilot my way through life, I go from living to existing. I can’t just exist. Jesus died on the cross to give us LIFE! So therefore I am called to LIVE. Yes, living sometimes does include school, work, planning and the like. But first and forever foremost it includes finding your identity, your strength, your sustenance, your faith, your hope, and your life in Christ. –That’s sometimes hard. Not because He made it hard for us; but because we make it hard for us. I made it hard for me.

This fall has been hard. It’s been just…YUCK! Yeah, there were some highs thrown in with the lows, but I’ve just been low. I’ve played a huge role in that. I have failed to recognize who I am.

Praise be to God that He is faithful and puts wonderful friends and family in my life to come into these times. Praise Him for continuing to be such a constant, faithful, loving father. Praise the Lord for being the One to put our hope into. I am hoping for a season of closeness to our father, a season of rediscovering who I am in the Lord, of really living, of finding my joy in Him, and of shedding the busy-busy-busy for connecting and growing. I don’t want June to be here and be like “Wait... What? Sizzle!”

Let’s live together, to bring honor and glory to Him.

"that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith."
Romans 1:12